Well, my maternity leave is up as of midnight tonight 
and I can't believe how quickly it has gone by! It has been about 11 months since I went on leave and going back into the corporate world tomorrow seems like the dream has ended and the nightmare is starting ….
It is impossible for me to express how frustrated I am at having to go back and how much I really don't want to step back into the job that I was doing. Don't get me wrong, the people I work with are fantastic and if I could get paid for just chatting to them and not having to do any other work, then it would be perfect!
I saw a couple of the girls from work last night and the politics, drama and client issues that they were telling me about has made me even more reluctant to face the music tomorrow. I am already having nightmares about going back but until I make some decent money online, this is the only option for now. My only saving grace is that I'm in for only 3 days a week (well, hopefully only 3 days – before I went on maternity leave I was meant to be working 4 days a week but ended up working 5 90% of the time!).
I'm extremely envious of my friends that are still on maternity leave or that have decided not to go back. Angry at myself for not being able to make the 11 months of maternity leave work in my favour and frustrated at having made little headway in what I wanted to achieve.
I've just got to refocus, get back to reality and wake up on Monday morning with a positve attitude and a drive to make this online career a success – for the sake of my family and my sanity!
